We all have painful memories, and some of us become depressed of it. I think the smart thing to do is find a job to blow off your bad feelings. The other way you can help yourself is by doing exercise, and watch TV for entertainment. You can watch sports, movies, concerts, or shows. My time is sitting on the couch reading anything that is educational, and for study. It takes days to blow-off your depression, and it can take about two months. The simple thing is to let go of your loved ones that aren’t longer there in your life. Of, course it doesn’t hurt to remember them, but they would want you to move on. Being sad your entire life won’t help your sanity. I think by being fully happy of accepting who you are, then people will like you more. Being on your own is tough, but stick through it by solving your feelings, then you’ll be doing just fine. I don’t weep all through my life thinking of my past negative events. Besides, I am going to online writing classes, and keep myself busy all the time. You should find some time to think things through, before you go on your own. Don’t be a sadistic. Find yourself useful, and be the most important person for your family, and friends. The first best start is the heavy blow of depression, which your positivity will come back to you.