Some people have felt that they can’t erase those former past negative years behind, and it’s difficult for them to do so. The negative years’ pasts are over and done with. Some of us were affected by it, and can’t seem why. If the negative past year has happened like 30 or so years ago, then let it go. Don’t hold it in for memory safe keeping. It’s bad for your health. It ruins your whole life of enjoying things anywhere you go in the present. That year is so into you and in your human system. I think thinking about the negative year isn’t healthy. Some people have problems grasping the positive years. Most of us have been there before. The reason is that it is easy to be negative and reflect on it, while it is hard to be positive. Bring your full effort to be happy again. The things you enjoyed of the past year doesn’t have to do with your personal past year lives. Anyway, that negative is gone, and over with. Do this just say that you’ve had a good time with friends and always thought positive anyhow. We all aren’t perfect. In that way no one will really consider you as a sadistic person, if you fully erase those past awful years now. You need to be happy and positive. Stay normal and optimistic that everything in the present is great.