I don’t think that being negative and feeling sorry for yourself will help you. It will however destroy your life and the way you see in life. The most important thing is to be happy. The smartest person is the happy and optimistic one. Never dwell on your negative pasts. Instead enjoy the fun present experiences. Do something optimistic that will eventually make you happy. Remember you are the most important person in this world. Value yourself in good positive things. Be active and useful. Stay happy. Being happy is healthy. The first step is to realize how you feel right now and then do something about it. Use your mind and be smart to be happy.